I must admit, I have not been one to worry about my age. I always looked forward to my birthdays and the new beginnings and promises the new year held. Some people say thirty was a hard transition for them. I never really gave it a second thought. I was in the mist of mothering and having babies. Honestly, I did not have time to think too much about it.
Fast forward ten years and it is somewhat a different story. My children are older, which somehow makes me feel older. I guess I have more time to think about turning 40. Over the past few months, I convinced myself turing forty was NOT a BIG deal. However, when the day arrived I was surprised to find myself an emotional mess. Does the number really bother me? Is my life really half over? How did the time pass so quickly? I am still trying to process it all. I really don't know, but what I do know is this :
1. I have my health.
2. I have a wonderful Husband who I grow to love more each year.
3. Four healthy kids that have taught me so much.
4. At 40 I get more sleep (no more babies keeping me awake).
5. I get to focus a bit more on myself and my needs.
6. I want my kids to look back and have fond memories of their childhood and know that although I am far from perfect, I tried to be the best mom I could.
7. I want my parents to know how much I appreciate them for all they have done for me and continue to do so. I could not ask for better parents.
8. Life is not always fair but how we handle this is what is important.
9. At forty, I have overcome a lot of fears and insecurities.
10. There are still things I worry about.
11. All of my visions and aspirations I had when I was young did not play out.
12. Some dreams were even better than I could have imagined.
13. Some did not come true at all.
14. I have learned that is O.K.
15. I have loved deeply.
16. I have hurt deeply.
17. Life has taught me so much in forty years.
18. I still have so much to learn.
19. I am happiest surrounded by family and friends.
20. I have a love affair with coffee. I will never give it up.
21. I enjoy all things crafty.
22. I am addicted to pinterest.
23. I hope to get back to teaching someday.
24. I do not enjoy the fact I have a few gray hairs. Nothing a little color can't handle but nontheless, I don't like it.
25. I do not like regrets. I like to think of my mistakes as a way to grow.
26. I love the beach and hope to live there with my husband when the kids have grown.
27. I have learned that is o.k to have a voice.
28. I don't have to be perfect.
29. I am not over.
30. I am just beginning.
31. I will continue to grow.
32. I am right where God wants me to be.
33. I am finding peace in 40.
34. I refuse to grow up!
35. I can't believe I was twenty when my mom turned forty.
36. I still look forward with great anticipation to what life has in store for me.
37. I can't believe in ten years I will be fifty.
38. Forty will seem so young then, Ha!
39. I am beyond blessed and cannot praise God enough.
40. I am happy to be at this place in my life!
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